The Collective Mind: Poetry From My Multiple Personalities

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Elizabeth

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Biography
 
I was born into an extremely abusive family.  My parents, who I tend to refer to as "the parents", abused me from infancy into my adult life.  The parents were involved in a satanic cult which they introduced me to at a very young age.  I was forced to do horrific things not meant for any human to have to do.  I was abused on a daily basis and because of the extreme nature of the abuses and my young age I developed Multiple Personalites to help me survive and cope with the trauma that was happening to me at the hands of the parents and the other people they brought into my life to abuse me.  The mother would abuse me at home doing all kinds of cruel and unbelieveable things to me.  She tortured me beyond belief.  They stole my childhood and my life from me.  I am finally at 39 years old beginning to enjoy my life. 
 
I was diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder, now known as Dissociative Identity Disorder (MPD/DID), in 1993.  I was having intensely intrusive flashbacks and body memories of when the father raped me.  I could not walk or take care of my children.  My therapist at the time talked me into going to the hospital for help.  It did help to go to the hospital and to get a name for what was going on with me and everyone inside. 
 
I thought everyone heard voices, other personalities talking, crying, and laughing while I was trying to carry on with the daily tasks of raising three children.  I thought it was normal to hear all the noise and confusion I hear in the head all the time.
 
As I started therapy I realized how much writing was a big part of our healing process.  My personalities began to write about their experiences of trauma and abuse.  There were times when writing was the only way we could get the abuse out because saying the words out loud was too painful.  Poetry has been a big part of our healing.

 Background Information

I was born on April 6, 1966, which was used against me all the time.  The parents would say I was an evil child because I was born with the three sixes.  The parents are Theresa and Wilson, who came across as normal every day people.  I was the youngest of three.  I was never really close to either my brother or my sister.  I feel they were jealous because I spent so much time with the parents.  If they only knew I was not having fun, that I was being abused! 

I lived with the parents until I got married at 16 years old.  I was pregnant and figured if I got married I would finally get away from the abuse.  Well, I was wrong because he was part of it!  Yeah, it was all a big plan on their part and boy did I get screwed!  I was finally able to leave him some 8 years later.  Soon after that my healing journey began.

I have no contact with the parents any more.  They still call with their triggering buzzes but I know it is them and I am no longer under their control.  I am FREE from them and their control.  I confronted the mother and have not looked back since.  I do not talk to my brother or sister either.  They have choosen to take the parents side because it is easier for them to deny it so they can keep getting the money the parents hand out to keep you quiet. 

Laughing at my silly family on vacation in Orlando, FL

 

 Accomplishments

I have three Awesome children!  Well really I have three of my own children and three step children that are like my own!  I am in the Most Loving & Respectful relationship with my partner Lin! 

I had quit high school at age 15 so I studied and took my GED, passing with no problem! 

I have been in therapy for many years and have made much progress in the healing process.  It has been a lot of hard work but well worth it!  Recently ending a long term therapy and starting with a new therapist, which is something I never thought would ever happen.  It has been one of the best things I have done in a long time.  A well needed change for everyone, me and all my personalities.I was in a relationship with a lovely woman who's name was Deb.  She was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma four months after we met.  She passed away in our home with me sleeping by her side 2 years later.  It was a very sad time for me.  I felt and thought I would never find someone who would love me again.  She was the first person who really loved me, all of me and my personalities.  I just knew I would never find someone so understanding again.

 

Here I am with my partner Lin

I sure was wrong!!  I did meet people who did not care but then I met Lin. Lin is unlike anyone I have ever met in my whole life!  She is so understanding, caring, and loving.  She has helped me to grow more than even my therapist at the time was helping!  She has taught me so many important things about life and people.  When you grow-up in such a crazy abusive life you just don't learn the every day things people take for granted.

 

 Additional Information

After getting this book under way, I plan to start writing a book about my life and all the abuse.  I am not totally sure as of yet exactly how I am going to go about it but there will be at least one book but I am hoping for more than just the one.

 

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